I may be more excited this Monday than most for a few reasons:
1. Saturday was our last official class for our license
2. We enjoyed a great and busy weekend filled with family and our youth group family
3. Ended the weekend with Winter Jam, which was great, and enjoyed each moment with our group.
Its so amazing how when you are doing His work you can be busy and work on little sleep and yet feel so rested and filled with life. Its definitely a spiritual thing and one that I am enjoying today. So thank you Lord for this blessing even when I didn't ask for it but You knew I would need it!
So in my last post I wrote about preparation and what we have been doing as we are making are way through this process. In case some of you don't know, in order to get a license to become a foster parent you have to do several things. It can be a pretty lengthy process. Along with fingerprinting, background check, and copies of all our bills (and so much more) you also have to get a physical. In case you don't know me very well, I am a list person to the core. I love writing it down, putting it my phone, or storing it in my head (of course nowadays that is not always the safest place!). This process is no different; I have a list and it changes at times because I list it in priority order. Yes, I am sure if God gets headaches I am quite certain I could be the cause of one or two of them. At times I get so focused on my list I lose sight of what my list is truly about. Back in December I had scheduled my physical and was ready to have one more thing checked off my list and ready to move on to the next. Little did I know God was about to shake me up and remind me who is in control. So the doctor heard a murmur, not a real big deal, but wouldn't write my physical off without me first seeing a cardiologist. Ugh! Seriously, with Christmas coming I don't have time to build this into "my" checklist. But did I really have a choice? In the middle of doctor appointments and physical therapy on my shoulder (did I mention I can be pretty clumsy? A cute wedge shoe can be pretty dangerous on stairs) I make an appointment to see a cardiologist. In January I find out my mitral valve is leaking. (I'm a nurse, but not a cardiac one, so Google it if need be, but be careful of all that internet education; they can probably explain it better than me!). My heart is also having PVCs. (Premature ventricular contractions). Ok, not a big deal really, a lot of people have this, some minor some major. "Ok doc, got it do, you mind signing this form please? Test?!?" Yep, more tests, more money, more time, more things on my checklist to check off. So, to keep this from getting too long, somewhere in the middle of the test I finally released my list to God. I was never scared of the outcome or my health; I know my God is bigger than that. I have two children when I was told I wouldn't have any and a Dad that is cancer free and shouldn't be. But I have also had to go through some storms when God didn't see fit for them to be removed, but He reminded me that He would be there. My faith was being shaken by my list! Looking at this process and saying it seems to be so difficult to just get to the point where I want to be and where I know God has called us to be. One more thing in the way. Then I was reminded of one of my favorite verses, if not my favorite: No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12:11. Ok Lord, my list is in Your hands, mess with it how You wish and remind me You are the one that controls my time and this life is a gift. Instead of checking things off, what can I do that would bring honour to Your name? I am ready for Your training and will do my best to be patient while I am waiting on my harvest.
So, last week all tests were back and I was able to finally sit down with the doctor and discuss it all. Not one, but two snow days caused me to cancel my appointments. I think God was really testing me! I have a mild mitral valve leak. Of course, my leak can't be abnormally normal and just be posterior; it has to be off to the side a little. Just enough to concern the doctor to keep following me to see if my murmur worsens and would warrant more tests and possible structural issues. I truly think its God just keeping me on my toes as a reminder, like Jacob's hip. I read this quote not too long ago: "Belief in oneself can carry a man to the top of a mountain, whereas belief in God can move that mountain aside." I am so thankful I serve such a powerful God who can see past my faults and finds me worthy, even if it does mean messing up my list and reorienting my focus. Below is a picture I took in case the day came where I would want to share this. Of course a holter monitor was not going to keep me from going all out on my workout; after all, it was on my list for the day. ;)
So in my last post I wrote about preparation and what we have been doing as we are making are way through this process. In case some of you don't know, in order to get a license to become a foster parent you have to do several things. It can be a pretty lengthy process. Along with fingerprinting, background check, and copies of all our bills (and so much more) you also have to get a physical. In case you don't know me very well, I am a list person to the core. I love writing it down, putting it my phone, or storing it in my head (of course nowadays that is not always the safest place!). This process is no different; I have a list and it changes at times because I list it in priority order. Yes, I am sure if God gets headaches I am quite certain I could be the cause of one or two of them. At times I get so focused on my list I lose sight of what my list is truly about. Back in December I had scheduled my physical and was ready to have one more thing checked off my list and ready to move on to the next. Little did I know God was about to shake me up and remind me who is in control. So the doctor heard a murmur, not a real big deal, but wouldn't write my physical off without me first seeing a cardiologist. Ugh! Seriously, with Christmas coming I don't have time to build this into "my" checklist. But did I really have a choice? In the middle of doctor appointments and physical therapy on my shoulder (did I mention I can be pretty clumsy? A cute wedge shoe can be pretty dangerous on stairs) I make an appointment to see a cardiologist. In January I find out my mitral valve is leaking. (I'm a nurse, but not a cardiac one, so Google it if need be, but be careful of all that internet education; they can probably explain it better than me!). My heart is also having PVCs. (Premature ventricular contractions). Ok, not a big deal really, a lot of people have this, some minor some major. "Ok doc, got it do, you mind signing this form please? Test?!?" Yep, more tests, more money, more time, more things on my checklist to check off. So, to keep this from getting too long, somewhere in the middle of the test I finally released my list to God. I was never scared of the outcome or my health; I know my God is bigger than that. I have two children when I was told I wouldn't have any and a Dad that is cancer free and shouldn't be. But I have also had to go through some storms when God didn't see fit for them to be removed, but He reminded me that He would be there. My faith was being shaken by my list! Looking at this process and saying it seems to be so difficult to just get to the point where I want to be and where I know God has called us to be. One more thing in the way. Then I was reminded of one of my favorite verses, if not my favorite: No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12:11. Ok Lord, my list is in Your hands, mess with it how You wish and remind me You are the one that controls my time and this life is a gift. Instead of checking things off, what can I do that would bring honour to Your name? I am ready for Your training and will do my best to be patient while I am waiting on my harvest.
So, last week all tests were back and I was able to finally sit down with the doctor and discuss it all. Not one, but two snow days caused me to cancel my appointments. I think God was really testing me! I have a mild mitral valve leak. Of course, my leak can't be abnormally normal and just be posterior; it has to be off to the side a little. Just enough to concern the doctor to keep following me to see if my murmur worsens and would warrant more tests and possible structural issues. I truly think its God just keeping me on my toes as a reminder, like Jacob's hip. I read this quote not too long ago: "Belief in oneself can carry a man to the top of a mountain, whereas belief in God can move that mountain aside." I am so thankful I serve such a powerful God who can see past my faults and finds me worthy, even if it does mean messing up my list and reorienting my focus. Below is a picture I took in case the day came where I would want to share this. Of course a holter monitor was not going to keep me from going all out on my workout; after all, it was on my list for the day. ;)
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love you and all your lists! love~
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